A day when life is not as glitter as it should.

by Amanda Matshogo (South Africa)

Making a local connection South Africa

I chose to pack my bags and drift into the nearest nest of magic. I knew the road wouldn't be easy as I was leaving behind a trail of anger and trauma, but I was ready to tackle my next challenge. I expected to feel great and happy but I was still battling with my demons when I stopped along the way to grab a bottle of water, as I stood in the line to pay I knew I had not healed from what I went through, I felt weak at knees. I trembled from within and moved away as soon as I realized I was not okay. I took steps of hope as I paddled to continue with my journey. All in a day's time I was ready to bring forth my true nature, I was ready to pick myself up and love myself again. Well just to fill you into my head, a year ago I was in a solified relationship, I was happily married and living my dream, I had a nice job and apartment. But I had no children of my own, I was raising my husbands children from his previous marriage, I was content with the outcome of my life so I thought I was happy. I didn't know that Life had a breaking point until I lost my own flesh and blood, that is when I decided to leave everything behind and take my bag and leave. As I was on my journey to self discovery I hoped to be back as myself not anyone else. I arrived at Cape Beach at dawn, I put down my bags to lie down when I heard a knock at my door. I opened to receive room service, I took a long bath and dozed of to what I can call the first peaceful sleep I have heard in years. As I woke up to a sunny day at the beach I sipped on a hot tea, opened my dear diary to pen down some thoughts. I took a walk down the beach to get some air when a fellow colleague bumped into me, we exchanged greeting and asked what he was doing there, words turned to action and the next thing I knew I was laying naked on his bed. I couldn't help but laugh off how my local connection could make me feel so young and attractive again. If only wishes were horses he would still be mine.