Clowning love

by Aitana López Galbeño (Spain)

I didn't expect to find India

Today was a special, exciting, and all around spectacular day. I met the group Compassionate Clowns, which is made of young people that meet up on weekends to share their joy with those that need to be remembered and share their own. Today’s meeting was in the Kidwai Memorial Institute of Oncology in Bangalore, India. We spent some time with the kids who come frequently to the hospital, dressing up and playing as clowns. We played, we laughed, we jumped around, we danced… I heard these children, and I connected with them, using only their reactions towards me as a guide to help me reveal the deepest parts of who I am. I felt constant rebirth that comes from being in the present. It was a chance to empathize and feel the present moment, pure joy and true love. It is this combination that creates the energy that maintains these children so vibrantly alive. They remind me constantly that there is nothing to hide about oneself, the magic shines all by itself. Spontaneity was my only ally. She is the action-by- action manifestation of the complete soul’s true essence. Through her, the manifestation of my inner true self becomes possible, that which creates the entire reality that surrounds me in every moment. When one shares themselves from this state, words fall short, images become obsolete; feelings become altered as we attempt to describe them instead of simply living them… The best way to experience this sensation is to simply live it, and to see how each pure and sincere look reminds you of the child you were and continue to be, if you haven’t forgotten, and if you respect her for what she is. Clown, for me, means many things, but before anything else it means returning to be that inner child that is always with me in every decision I make, every look I share with the world, and in every breath I take that changes the surroundings in which I find myself. It means to let go of everything we have to share, following the stimuli which cause us to be. For as subtle as movement may be, it is communication from the soul. It is, simply, life itself: simple, beautiful, vulnerable, and self-evolving. I feel full of energetic intensity when I have this opportunity to see that their world is no more than my own. They make me remember myself me so much that I forget all that is around me. Everything stops when I am in each one of the vibrations with which I am synchronizing and flowing in infinite space. Everything can be found in the wind, in the moment that it moves and gives life to movement. Today I met freedom. My soul stopped being one to join with all the other souls that have helped me expand and grow. I felt union, understanding, and life in each child. Their gazes are clean mirrors that remind me of who I was and continue to be with myself, because they know me, and I know them. I was overcome with joy, emotions, intensity. I was overcome with energy. I was overcome with myself. I see that I continue to be the forever youthful child that I was, and I am now and will continue to be my entire life. Although time will pass, this does not distort my space, for I never go against, always with. This does not influence how we understand communication; what happened between these children and myself was that moment where you need not use words yet say everything, where one can see themselves in the eyes of another just like another can see themselves through your eyes. It’s finding that love of oneself in all the souls that makes each one of us who we are; it’s finding gazes to deposit our soul because it recognizes it as a safe place that looks with the same eyes that we see. The Universal dance doesn’t stop; it simply converts into a permanent image when one ceases to dance in the harmony in which the soul vibrates. Today was a day of freedom, playing with the best gift that life offers: LOVE.