Finding Her

by Victoria Brown (United States of America)

A leap into the unknown France

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Beginning with a broken heart, a broken soul, mental and physical abuse, manipulation, sex, love, passion, pain, triumphant victories, accomplishments, making a new life after death the death of her beloved, Hustle, drugs, betrayal, miscarriage ,finding a way home. It all begins with the story of a woman. Whose heart Was too pure for her own good. And finally finding her way. To herself In a land completely unknown to her. Without knowing the language or traditions or their way of life. Oh, she is an outcast. Trying to start new, start fresh, making a way out of no way, There's only a few options. Leading her to do things she would never have considered before. Oh, the misery and hurt, the hidden cries, a naked invulnerability of one She leaves no children. And has no love of her own. , abandoned by her father and his father before him. She trusts no one. Though she yearns for a company. And companionship She'd much rather be alone. And learning to trust is not an easy feat. So she runs. , runs and runs some more until her legs give way. And she is to her knees. Begging for mercy begging for her heart to heal , begging for a new life pleading for happiness or whatever that is. Oh, the absence of her beloved. Weigh heavily upon her and all she knows is to keep running. And the only answer. That comes to mind is to run away from all the people all the problems. And find a new country a new place 4 piece a space to thrive and be given a new chance. To be what she is meant to be. , but she is unsure. And Afraid and scared to jump because of What Lies Beneath the unknown, will she fall? Will she die? Will she be able to even get out of the hole? She is Doug for herself. Will anyone be there to catch her when she falls? All the questions unanswered all the answers unquestioned. She falls for a young man. Who has been through some of the worst circumstances in life and she is drawn to him. And his Brokenness for what they have in common his pain It is much more than physical. It is so much more than spiritual. Yet she has troubles trusting him. Pushing him away and then running again. NES time goes by she finds herself. Confused And longing for his touch. And his warm embrace because she finds that only he understands a portion of the pain and grief. The longing of his kiss and as things begin to look bright and her future promising she becomes too afraid to commit to him. And she is lost. Looking for her mother. And herself looking for her father. And herself looking for the roots. That she never planted. Because she's always running. She's always hiding. Never giving herself the opportunity to love again. When will she stop running? ? Does she find out? The truth of her past through her future and her present. ? Does she feel the void That she's been continuously trying to feel. Through sex drugs alcohol and just simply running away from it all. ? Does her story end in complete sadness? Or does she find The silver lining that she's always been searching for. This story is very emotional on many levels. Yet she Find a way. To keep living, She paints. And all her pain and emotions begin. To flourish like the flower that she is. And only if Given the right opportunity Will she find herself. She is strong. Yet she is vulnerable. Who knows where this road leads? Considering where she's come from and all the obstacles that she has had to deal with.