finding peace after death

by victoria okeregwu (United Kingdom (Great Britain))

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the hardest thing sometimes is leaving behind something you've known your whole life, you loose time and energy deciding if your'e making a mistake or should just stay with what you know, well i'm here to tell you now it's never a mistake to make a change. when i was little i was the happiest, had family around, was never hungry, always went on vacation because to be honest as a child it's little things that make you both happy and sad, then i grew up and just like that it all changed. i thought my teen years were going to be the hardest boy was i wrong turns out surviving your twenties is the real task. everyone is finding themselves at this age you realise those you went to secondary school with are not the same people you are seeing now, now they can be free to be who they are, well the story applies to me too. I am 22 and i can say i'm still finding myself, i let go of what was expected and decided to do what brings me peace of mind. i never would have thought writing would be that, i have my friend to thank for that because it started as a way to cope mentally then it just kept going pouring into scripts and songs. you know if you write anything you will appreciate experiences of all kinds not being afraid to get hurt because all you can see are the words that will come of that, but in a world like this sometimes it's easier said than done because of fear. Don't intentionally walk into a pit of fire in the name of experience but if there is a bridge over that pit to get to the other side will you cross it and that is the real question. they say we need balance in life maybe not everyone is meant to cross the bridge, maybe the ones who cross are the ones who constantly need adventure to stay whole so they can cross and come tell the experience of it back to those on the other side, but i say no, theres only so much writing can do you feel, you imagine just through words alone but thats just it you never see for yourself we have gone over the bridge and come back with stories so you don't feel scared to cross for yourself, we came back to tell you how much is out there, the people you will meet who will touch your life in ways you never knew were possible, the food you will eat that makes you have a mini orgasm in your mouth, the music you will hear that makes you feel the same feeling as the singer, the pain the heartbreaks the laughter, breathe, laugh, cry, dance, read, do it all. in this new age of technology social media is so powerful it shows it can be done, so no matter how hard or painful it is, no matter the guilt you feel because of the pain you might cause loved ones put yourself first and find who you truly are and be able to breathe and smile and know your time here was an experience. I am 22 and i can say i'm still finding myself