From Home to heaven.

by Muhammad Kamran (Pakistan)

A leap into the unknown Pakistan

Once I get up early in the month of july on the preparation of interview to the college in 2017.I have decided to take admission in college to proceed my education career and get graduation. I admitted to Edwards college Peshawar as a bachelor student, it's was two year course. I had started study, Iniative educational career in good environment. There were four subjects included in curriculum each subject had different combinations of students boys and girls .In the beginning everything were looking different and unique. However one of my major subjects was sociology, which were taught by teacher sir, Atif bhatti ,had combination of fifteen students in class half were girls mean seven and the rest were boys along me.It was the background of my story until now the heart of story began. I am white in clour,normal in height but unique in attitude. Although one of my colleagues by the name of Manahil who was white in clour, innocent in looking, she was only limited to class and girls common room ,even I only seen her once in a day but with passage of "I SAW SOMETHING ON HER BUT I DON'T KNOW ".I started looking on her during class ,she feels that the boy have crush on me but still I stering her just for five months .Yeah we go to home in vacations for two and half months.This was big gap in my stery eyes, i have decided that I would talk her when classes began. Again situation was same but she get improved, started outing in college to my stery eyes. Again I decided that I would talk her but couldn't. Year ago everyone knew that he loved Manahil.I always saw her on respect and still she is my respect. When classes get finish I couldn't go without her glance. My home and college had twenty kilometers distance but when i started, and saw something on her the distance reduced to only two kilometers.Year go with full of my attitude and half heart.After year, again i decided that I would talk her and make her friend.In one year which is three hundred and six days I didn't encourage to talk her after an year somehow i encourage by someone and send her message that It was simple and direct'can i talk you'as a result i got blocked.Only my eyes start talking with her eyes nor me and she getting approached yet of real love,feeling and respect. When i thought that only six months left in our graduation so then i encouraged my self that today must I will talk her ,when i stand beside her to tell her about book ,automatically my body shrived and all is vain ,more then twenty time i had decided that i would talk her but didn't.By the way a boy came on her life within one month and i remain alone and still alone ,so I knew that my weakness was only my respect, but i knew that my respect is my everything. Yeah two year gone ,one of my friend told me that "you came down and Now you went down " In my two year approach I didn't qualify to talk her but still i am looking i will talk her because Without anything happened again "I saw something on her but I don't know.I hope that she will talk me because i am on the way to carrer building, I don't know where is she ,how will she but I prayed her Allah almighty bless you ,because I love you, It doesn't mean that she didn't came in my life yeah real love doesn't mean body touch. It's rounded on feeling I always feel her even she didn't remember me or feel me .I love her by heart not by words.so i wish her one of the happiest and successful woman ever.After this successful and full of opportunities time. I only gain experience that I fell the way i lived, if anyone follows the path on which I passed may he/she become even proud of their family .Now living with courage, standard ,hope,dream.But still i saw something on her but I still don't know. Love you Manahil