Traveling is quite lonesome.Traveling towards home town (Daharki) ,i see people everywhere,some people enjoying their journey,kind acquaintances,chitchatting and treating me like one of their own,but nothing makes me happy.My feeling are exposed and talking to others doesn't help me to become happy at all.Luckily, i am having a seat with no host behind me,i am listening to Nida fazli's ghazal on my phone,jagjit Singh sings: Har taraf har jagah beshumar aadmi fir bhi tanhaiyon ka shikaar aadmi. Every direction,every place is infested with humans still preyed by loneliness,only a human. I am questioning everything,Why people choose to get higher education,get married,have kids.go to work,be at home,buy a house,travel and there's no definite answer i can arrive at.Everything seems to be puzzled for me. Is it what they call nihilism? which is defined as disbelieve,but i blindly accept and believe in God and his existence.OR am i going through an existential crisis-last felt in college life when i was completely unprepared for an exam the next day?That existential crisis got over the moment i finished my examination.What about this one,when there's no exam waiting with a fear and pressure for me? Loneliness:a word as thick as it sounds, I am happy that they didn't choose a smaller word to describe this feeling.Imagine,what if a word like bore some would have described this state.It would be so inept.It doesn't hold the weight that the word loneliness carries.Loneliness,the alone sitting and looking back at what's behind it,unable to carry it any further and difficult to understand the reason behind.The word seems to have given up.Like a father looking at his dying child.like a coach looking at their trainee losing in their last attempt at the race of their dreams.Like a lover,in a relationship,out of love.Only the word loneliness could appropriately describes the meaning it holds within.No amount of explanation can fill in. Hoping tomorrow will be better day.Tomorrow,what a beautiful word! To me,it looks like a truck with wheels moving so fast that i can't catch up.It looks like motion...now it seems like i am flying in air after thinking about my destination towards my home. I think i should continue my journey. I am sinking in the comfort and clutches of not moving.Moving is the only way to not sink.Today as i packed my bags to leave, i wanted to write a quote which i read in pinterest "You are creative until you know how to turn your loneliness into solitude" And i learnt a lot from this quote . I see people around me and observe them deeply with full of life and see my inner self that how empty i am .. This was the time when i was half asleep and watching my self somewhere in heaven ,suddenly i felt a jerk and my half sleep was gone some where ....then immediately stood up so that i can see what happened because i felt bus was stopped after a jerk....people started shouting and crying because we had an accident ,in result front portion of bus was damaged and driver was died at the spot ....That was the moment i saw may people rescuing each other and i also took part to rescue kids and old people....while giving them first aid i felt that how much life is important for every soul and very precious for those who were dying that time with pain ....and started getting answers of my every question which were arising a while before ....There was the great difference in these two situations when i was feeling empty and my self useless but now i am dying to save lives of people,felt my self important because now was able to save others ,honestly speaking after rescuing people i was feeling satisfied ...that was the time when i was literally weeping inside for those who were died and taken in emergency and i could not do any thing for them. We stayed there for 2 hours until second bus was being arranged for us ...after 2 hours those who were safe and sound were shifted to next bus to continue their journey because still we had 8 hours to travel more ....after an accident every one was trying to calm down each other because that was the situation when every one need shoulder to relax.i was a person in entire bus who was lonely traveling ..that was the situation when i was not able to contact my family because still they were far away from me and i was not in situation to give them tension or shock that bus in which their daughter was traveling.