natural and unnatural lights of mine

by Mariam Sardaryan (Armenia)

I didn't expect to find Armenia

i didn't expect to find me .. when i was a little girl i want to grow up and see the all beauty of the world love hope music etc..., understand myself , it was a good idea for me ... now i grow up ... i have friends , family but i dont know myself .. His sorrow was not solitude, it was that other gulls refused to believe the glory of flight that awaited them; they refused to open their eyes and see. Seagull quotes we know and understand ourselves when communicating with others... but if i were to live in wild nature i shouldnt talk and can"t walk like i do now .. so i know that we can't find ourselves because we all have and natural and unnatural lights that can help us and can disturb us .. it looks like a cinema and theater were all lie but want to fly like seagull did ... so we all want freedom , and want to find ourselves ... we all want leaders .. that can show us a good road .. you know sometimes i think that i have illusions ... so im in my own dream with natural and unnatural lights with my created heroes .. and created animals, nature, planets etc.. thats why im mess up... we all robots that doing the same but we think that all we have our individual view of life .. but its a joke .. we are talking a big ideas a buissness thinks .. but we dont know a liittle thinks like were are we from ? ... how did the planet get started ? and were are we going when we dying ... about time.. we living easy life .. we dont want hard roads .. we want to jump and left that in past.. we all believe in love some period of life .. but what if its not we are .. it isnt our thoughts... what if its our illusions , ego , and our imagination.. i asked many people what is love .. and every person explain love with different ways.. art , music ... its all about our emotional points .. but what if all emotions go to hell .. what if you cant talk and cant hear and cant smell.. what you will do if u met u ? its all about our imaginations and illusions ... i think that we all want the same shit the other ways.. we all want to be loved .. we all want attention.. more attention.. we all want to do individual thinks .. but its all about our childhood.. so everybody have complexes.. and they all want to hide it in a privacy place .. and if you hide it it can knock the door and say hi .. you will solve them .. and you only you know how can you solve them .. you can tell it if u want to your friends and not only them.. and it can be your solution of that little problem... we have a bad habbits, example .. all little problems we can grow and make them a bigger and when we left that point we understand that it was equal 1+1 .. so why not .. why we cant be honest each other and not only each other .. why we cant say easly things that disturbing us .. why we are lying.. i dont know.. sometimes say that words" i dont know , i love you , you are beautiful " its hard for us why beacuse when we critisize others ... we dont remember our fails .. so i want that if you reading this all.. and if you are honest with you say for you" you know you" ? do you understand and know your walks of your life journey ? so if your answer will be no i will understand you , and if it will be yes i will understand you too .because i dont want to close the doors... if you open your mind doors maybe some day you will find yourself and it can be the greatist day.. to know yourself and to show good roads to the others .. share love and love will find you .. maybe this words were stupid maybe its my illusions.. but it were written 02.43 on 25.02.20 with honest love .. by me with love Mariam “ It is much more difficult to judge oneself than to judge others. ... Quotes a little prince