Second home

by Jéssica Ferreira (Portugal)

A leap into the unknown Jamaica

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Sometimes the best decisions of ours lives come unexpected. I was always saying that we should go after our dreams, I was always telling people to go to the unknown, to jump on an adventure without doubts, trusting our gut and ourselves. I think my advices came to test me That was how all started... I was alone in my room, looking for a place to go on my first trip alone. Although I already had a special connection with a country, I wasn't so sure about going there, in my first trip, ALONE! I had to get off that idea of my mind so I decided to go out and meet some friends. As I was walking to them something catches my attention and guess what? Some publicity about that country. Man... I don't believe in coincidences but that hit me! I was trying to get my mind distracted with my friends but that wasn't helping... that thing was stuck in my mind and I couldn't understand why. The days went by, weeks, 2 months and my gut was telling me to go and buy a ticket to this place. And I went! The worst part about it was telling my parents what I've decided, they were so mad at me but I was sure that I would be fine and everything would be okay. One week before going I started feeling that nervous on my stomach getting bigger, that time I wasn't so sure if it was a good idea, I honestly thought about giving up but I didn't! Probably that would be my first and last chance to go there! Now I thank God I didn't gave up, I can tell my gut was so sure about this. The best time of my life I lived in this country, in fact, I'm writing this letter here in Jamaica but leaving soon. Waiting in the airport. But already missing this place. I've seen so many things here, I've met a lot of new people, so good, so beautiful. The thing that amazes me the most is that even though some live in less conditions them live to others, to offer the best they can to people around them. I've grown so much, I started a spiritual journey with some friends I made here. My rastafari friends, who made a lot for me. The truth secret about this isn't about receiving but about giving! I started dancing dancehall which is a still that was born here, in the ghettos, in the poverty and is all about love, sharing, people here love to dance, and the music... Reggae music is amazing, they use to play it in the sounds systems in the middle of the streets, we used to gathered all together, some bring food, others drinks, and we stay there till the sun goes down and it goes through the night till the next day. They live here, they really know how to live! I bring a message to all who is reading this, never stop believing in you, go and chase your dreams, they are there for a reason, they born with you for a reason! For you to make them come true, you're the only one who can make it possible. I came here, with fear, fear of the unknown, fear of what could happen to me. I cried along this path, I miss my home, my family, my friends, my "safe zone" but it was this, coming here to Jamaica that opened my mind, it was this unknown place that gave me life, that gave me a second home, that gave me love and peace. If you still wondering about going to somewhere my advice is go! Go with doubts, go with that feat in your chest but be ready, because that journey will change your life forever! It changed mine. And to Jamaica and people that God put in my way. thank you so much for everything you gave me, I really feel blessed to have you all in my hearts. I'm going home but I'll be back here. I'll never forget you. You live in my heart. Home is where your heart is. Love.