A leap into the unknown A ticket and a hope for confirmation was my heart's desire . It was the beginning of February, a month after I had made my years declarations only to realize they were just as good as they were.. on paper. For so long I had been yearning to find myself somewhere that was not here.. not death but discovery. I always wanted things different , if it was my hair it was my look and this time it was my lifestyle I was so desperately seeking to change, something not inspired by a movie or a show rather somewhere where discovery was left to your imagination. I decided I was going to take this moment right here to be self defiant. I realized that as humans our biggest fear wasn't death or living without purpose it is our fear of commitment to time. That moment solidified what I needed to do, in this case it was just like a movie I would pick a place and just go. Sounds easy doesn't it? Meanwhile there are certain requirements such as visa applications and medical tests that were wearing me down. The next question I was phased with was not just where I was going but what I was going to find.. I worked my way around it and landed on Penang Island, a small island off Malaysia. It wasn't unheard of but also wasn't among some of the most popular places in South East Asia. This was the first time in my life that I had no idea, not in terms of information, but the language alone was rare, the culture and different religions. As stay optimistic about this journey that little amount of fear starts to seep in. I'm not not to quit, I go ahead a back a ticket for the next day, a night flight! It didn't matter what time all that matter was that I was going. I entered the plane as excited as a child going to the ice cream shop. Knowing that I had two stops definitely wore me down but every flight got better with time . I arrive at the first international airport and slowly walk around as I imagine my new life. A life of my own .. no more friends, no more family to control or to assist me . It was me and my will to thrive . When I got on to the second flight as soon rather than later I arrived at the second location and to my dismay . What is this I see… and island ? A dream that I have been harvesting for several years was one day being able to wake up and feel the ocean breeze from the balcony window . Here I was … one ticket down and now to set myself up . It was all just a surreal moment of blush and anguish leaving what I had for so long know and now being here in this space. It was my time, I am here and I am here to live it.We all know the hustle of travelling at night and now here I am homeless. My hotel was double booked and trying to figure out how to get myself to a new accommodation safely. Truly every bad there is a worse.. but that wasn't my focus I was intent to making this moment, my life moments .shortly afterter settling down and finding a place that was beyond my dreams an ocean view apartment with an infinity pool overlooking the ocean . I sigh of relief for I had just made it. I had already planned out my first day.i was To go around the town to enjoy the scenic views. The old style colonial buildings, the air smelling of fresh coconuts and tons of fried foods. Walking down the streets with ice drinks sold on every stall and more than enough souvenir shops and doing the most to check out all the must see spots from my Google advisory. A splendid day it will be ...but all this planning and calculating wouldn't match for what happened next …My credit card wasn't working and now all I had between me and poverty was a good $25. Which in South East Asia is more than enough. I decided to rough it up and do it like the locals, take the bus. On my way there, I met a local who has been to my country for a number of years. This was great news for me , a sigh of relief as she could be my guide and indeed she did delivered. A magical day that began with all sorts of chaos returning to my hotel room at nine in the evening ! A day spent laughing with strangers, taking pictures,and eating the most spicy food found on the island. It was more than a first day to me, it was a lifetime of first days is what this meant for me. Everyday discovering , everyday meeting, everyday understanding what and where we come from. A simple hello that change my life forever.