Worrying is like an ocean

by Scribbler Mender (India)

I didn't expect to find India

Worrying is like an ocean I planned to have a ten days trip to Goa with my friends, this was a moment I plan to let go of my worries and give a break to myself and set a huge comeback after my failure in a writing contest and the trauma of learning that I was an adopted child. I wanted to forget everything after this trip and start a fresh life again and be my happy self. Little did I know that happiness is a long way to fetch I cannot just let go of my sorrows and pain just like that,when I met the sea for the first time I was thrilled I wanted to spent the rest of my life there. One morning I got up and set out to explore the beach it was then I found out my bestfriend had spent the night with Caroline's boyfriend, I felt betrayed out of all the people why my best friend ?/why Caroline's boyfriend ?? I was shattered that morning, I was lost at words I felt like I cannot trust anyone any longer my step parents had hide it from me that I was adopted, my bff hide her affair from me I guess I was been overly sensitive yet I know deep down no one has ever taken me seriously as I took them for they've never took me as friends. I found myself angry and hurt, and all they did was tell the others I was bitching around and they don't know why was I even mad. I cried the whole day and no one was there with me, people whom I thought I can trust has all left me, I learnt that day that no one is more important than yourself. No matter what you've to protect yourself because in this world no one ever puts their friendship first. I look at the sea and people walking around me and ask myself if they too have ever face the same hurt and betrayal. I watch the sea as they stretch far until the sky line and thought our worries and sadness are like the sea they stretch beyond the horizon and no one can ever truly get rid of the sorrow and the troubles. With every passing age it only increase and all we can do is numb and ignore the pain and hurt and not put so much emotion to human being who will only hurt sensitive people like us. Also its better to be in one's own company rather than in group of people who will hurt your sentiments.